Thursday, December 14, 2006

I wish I had a cup of Christmas Cheer

I am tired.. not just that I got up on the wrong side of the bed tired .. but the I can't see straight, bone weary achy muscle tired. It's sucky. This past month everything has been going wrong at my house.. my toilets broke, my dryers broke..our bank is broke.. My husband is broke. It sucks ... but we have gone through worse. Right?

The biggest problem I have right now, is that my husband is SEVERLY depressed. I have never, ever seen him this way. EVER. Normally we can talk about it and I can cheer him up enough to get him going. Not anymore. I have reached my limit. I feel like such a cold heartless bitch. I have tried getting him to talk to me but it turns into a battle.. I get my defenses up , beleive me Lord, I really try not to.
I don't know what to do. I want to help him ,but, I have come to the point where I just don't know how.

I had him talk to my mom, but that really didn't seem like it worked. He will not talk tohis friends. The friends I have talked to aren't very much help. Orthey just don't want to. I am frustrated, pissed and feel very much alone. I am making this as best as I possibly can for the kids. I just don't know what to do.

Depression alientates not only the person who is depressed but the whole family.
Merry Christmas.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Manic Monday

The Kitchen .. it has been cleaned. I have been neglecting the room that is the most important in this house. It was driving me insane.. so after breakfast.. I toiled..and sweat ..and toiled some more...

But it is done ..and until 3pm It will remain perfectly spotless until..
the children of destruction arrive and then...

I will cry.

Thursday, December 07, 2006


So I have been avoiding you. Well, not all of you, just some of you.
Kidding aside. Holiday's are crazy, We have been traveling all over. Visiting
family, friends and hobo's on the street. To spead good cheer , you know?

My daycare is putting on a christmas program , which is very entertaining, I am trying to teach my 4 one-year-olds how to sing " All I want for Christmas" ,NOT working.. at all . They just sway side to side and push each other down . Very cute , very entertaining. MY older daycare kids will be doing 'Jingle Bell Rock'
with sunglasses. Very Elvis Presley..

OK,on to more important things,like what I need for Christmas.Just give me Wentworth Miller. Wrapped in a bow, or you can keep the bow.Give me him and I will be whistling dixie for the next year. My husband won't mind, I will just hid Mr. Miller in the closet, or under the bed. Better yet I can introduce him as my pool boy , even though the closest thing I have to a pool is a little 7'inch high thing, oh, and did I forget to mention that it's below 30 degrees? Well Wenty-dear can thaw my ice.

Christmas programs and hot men... just the thing to get me back in the swing of things!